Cost-o-chondritis- what it costs when you break your heart!

So I thought my heart was going kaput! It had finally cracked under the vicious cycle of one heart break after the other...A mild but constant pain on my right rib cage that just wouldn't go away for three days. I decided to be cautious and visited the doc (after my last act of bravery of not going to the doc and it turning out to be strep throat). Well what do you know I had an inflammation of my cartilage that connects my ribcage and sternum. And it was called (get this) "costochondritis"!!! So it does cost me every time I break my heart!:)

Moral of the story don't get your heart broken, its not good for you really. Eat drink and be merry and LAUGH out loud...Like at these pics:

Hilarious and this Hilariouser:)

An open letter to another heartbreak...

We differ in how we perceive truths or even call something the truth or not

In how I interpret someones continued interest in my life and hence me

What I take away from someone wanting to be in touch, in wanting to be able to reach me

This difference becomes a significant problem when trying to build something together especially friendship

 My underlying thought is: If the other person cant even establish that there is something or not what are you wasting your time for then...?

 

 I am glad you don't think we shared anything, we were just getting to know each other but like I told you I take the process seriously I did not think "lets hang around for fun and see where it goes"...so for me it was something more. I wasn't trying to force my thoughts on you but I have to speak my truth just like you have to. And I believe our core truths differ by a great margin and there is no point in prolonging this anymore. I at least know when I do like someone or not. If I want to continue spending time with them or not. I guess you are not able to take a stand. That's OK don't, but let us part ways now cos it will only get worse after this.

 

 Note to self and friends: When trying to mend oneself after any kind of bond is broken one pours forth words and reasons and explanations. There is this underlying reluctance to let go completely to completely severe the link, just like the thoughts in This Poem I found yesterday. Its OK to feel that way just don't act on what you feel though, cos even though it is true and the feeling is real and worthy it will not produce any rational-good-results in the future.

The Soupy Stem Diaries

 

I'm making a resolution today. That I will not fall in love again. Let me clarify I will not fall in love with any member of the opposite sex who is terrified of making a decision or take a stand when he really has to. Instead they rather walk away. Sadly this seems to define 99% of Indian eligible bachelors that I keep getting introduced to in the "arranged marriage" setup. Where are the bloody 1%??? It's been five years and many emotional millennia and I'm still stranded in this arid desert of spinsterhood squinting hopefully against the harsh rays of the sun towards the horizon. So I have a couple theories to explain my phenomena. I think I have a strong case of soupy stem and I'm certain that many of my girl and guy friends do too. What is soupy stem- soupy stem is a stalk of cilantro. If you put it in too hot a broth, its wilts and turns into a nondescipt green ball of no significance (that's me when I'm not in a happy relationship or surroundings). But if you let the broth cool just to the right temperature and slice the stalks into tiny little bits and sprinkle, then voila! you have this incredibly refreshing aroma that uplifts your senses and alleviates the taste and smell of the broth to a different level (that's me again in the start of every one of my relationships).

 

So why am I such a soupy stem that my broth/surroundings seem to dictate what flavor/state of mind I am in? Why can't I pick myself out of too hot of a broth and instead land lightly on a better tempered broth? Why do I wilt and still try to be happy in a broth that is clearly not suited for my best aroma to be expressed?

 

So I'm making a pact, a pact with my other soupy stem girl friends to not fall rather not fall first until I know that I am in the correct broth!:) Will you join my pact and help me keep my resolution?

Just keep visiting this blog and add your thoughts, resolutions, insights and we can take it from there!!!!